Remembering Rocktober: One Guy's Reflection On What It All Meant
I had been looking for a proper introduction to this piece since I first wrote it back in August. Two weeks ago, I found it. In the midst of a losing effort by the Rockies against the Padres, Silverblood made a comment that stated, "Well, I do like tall guys." I wanted to make a joke then, but only the two of us would have gotten it. I'm about two inches shorter than Silverblood, so my joke was, "Oh, that explains a whole lot about last September and October." What follows sheds some light on the basis for that joke.
"You are the best thing / Ever happened to me" - Ray LaMontagne, "You Are The Best Thing"
Rocktober was, is, and always will be about much more than just the Rockies and their run at the end of September and through those heady days in October. At least for me, those days were coupled with something else. This story certainly would have taken place (with a different tenor) had Rocktober not occurred. But it did, and that is why I'm willing to share this story here.
So, to whom or what do the lyrics I open this piece with refer to? In some ways it does refer to Rocktober, but it also refers to someone whom we know from here. Most of you know her as Silverblood. I know her as Hilary. This is a story about the two of us. It's a story that began on my birthday in 2007 and ended on 19 May this year in a LaGuardia Airport corridor, with a moment that could have been straight out of the last 10 minutes of a movie (minus a song playing in the background). But most of that story falls outside the scope of this particular one. The days of September and October are what matter here.
I'm not going to claim this is a good story, and I won't claim that it's an important story for anyone here (other than its participants). But it is an honest, if somewhat understated, story. In the end, that's the only story I can tell.
Join me after the jump.

As with all of us here (minus her sister), we met Hilary first through Purple Row. She informed us that she was attending Sarah Lawrence in New York. So when the start of the 2007 baseball season came, I wanted to see if Hilary was attending any of the Rockies-Mets games at Shea at the end of April. As it turned out, we were both going to two of the three games. The only game we both would be at was the series finale. On 25 April 2007, we met for a few minutes after the game. Over the next few months we talked with each other quite a few times.
Then on the second-to-last day of August, I invited Hilary to the Mets game on my birthday, 14 September. A few days later Hilary arrived in New York for her sophomore year of college, and days later we went to the Mets game. It was the best birthday I've had. I don't normally do anything to celebrate my birthday. This one was different. Then as Hilary and I walked back to the 7 train (she Manhattan-bound, me Main Street-bound), I asked her something: "So, you want to do something in the city some time? Or maybe I could come up to Bronxville? You've made it sound like a great place to visit." Smooth, right? Anyway, Hilary told me it would be great if I came up to Bronxville one day.
A few days later the Rockies started that improbable run. We saw Todd Helton hit that walk-off homer to take the back end of the double header against the Dodgers. We saw the Rockies win and win and win. Two weeks after my birthday, on 28 September, I went up to Bronxville to see Hilary. We celebrated the Rockies. Later we had a conversation that was quite awkward for the both of us (and that's about as honest as I want to be on that). We'd figure things out. So we went to a little restaurant in Bronxville to have dinner. The Rockies lost to the D'Backs that day, but that was just a minor road bump on the way to the playoffs.
I finally knew someone with whom I could enjoy the Rockies. Hell, I finally found someone I could enjoy time with. Days later, Holliday touched the plate. The Rockies swept the Phillies. Two weeks after my last visit, I saw Hilary again. That was 12 October, the day the Rockies went 11 innings against the D'Backs in Game 2 of the NLCS. By that day, I realized I found something I had been lacking: a great friend, someone I could trust. And let's just say I'm not the most trusting individual. If you know who The O.C.'s Seth Cohen is, that should give you a pretty good idea of what I'm like. So Hilary and I arrived at a mutually satisfying conclusion to our little situation. But there was something I noticed that day, yet passed it off as something else.
The Rockies swept the D'Backs and waited for what turned out to be a Red Sox ALCS victory. Everything just seemed so surreal. Could the Rockies really lose the World Series with everything that had happened over the past month?
The answer was, as we all know, yes. Rocktober came to a crashing halt in the most inglorious way: a four-game sweep. No elusive championship for the Rockies. But halfway through the series I just didn't care anymore.
Those of you who were around the site during that time may remember that moments after the second game of the World Series ended, Hilary told us she was in a dark place at that time. I talked with her a few minutes after that and found out she was battling depression, home-sickness, and loneliness. What I thought was tiredness that day a couple of weeks earlier was something far worse. I was devastated.
"All of life can be broken down into moments of transition or moments of revelation. This had the feeling of both." - G'Kar, Babylon 5, "Z'ha'dhum," Final note of Season 3
That night was composed of both moments. What I realized that night set the stage for all that was to come (all of which are outside the scope of this story). Baseball didn't really matter over the next couple of weeks--certainly not over the next three days. I was in those game threads on Saturday and Sunday, but my thoughts were elsewhere.
The outcome of the World Series doesn't diminish in anyway what the Rockies did to get there. They're still one of the best baseball stories ever. And for me, those exhilarating days are inextricably linked with finding my best friend.
So, thank you to the Rockies. You provided memories that will last a lifetime.
And most importantly, thank you to Hilary--a most intelligent, caring, kind, and funny girl who is the prime example of pulchritude (watch, she'll accuse me of flattery (again), but she is far too modest). You are a far better friend than I deserve. I am a better person for having you as a friend, Hilary.
"It was the dawn of a new age for all of us. It was the end of one chapter, and the beginning of another. The next [few months] would see great changes, great joy, great sorrow. The new [friendship] would waver and crack. In the end, it would hold - because what is built endures. And what is loved endures. And our [friendship . . . our friendship endures]." - Adapted, Delenn, Babylon 5, "Rising Star," Final note of Season 4.
Anything is possible.
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Yep
You’re flattering me.
Rockies 2008 Season Motto: "Naaaahhhh."
by Silverblood on
Sep 28, 2008 9:16 PM MDT
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See?
I was right.
"Never Surrender Dreams" - Inscription on J. Michael Straczynski's bench
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by Russ on
Sep 29, 2008 6:59 AM MDT
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That is a heartwarming story ^-^
To 2009 and beyond!
Insert clever and witty remark slash pun here!
UMD 8/04 - 5/08: Go Terps!
by ES46NE10 on
Sep 29, 2008 1:30 AM MDT
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That's a great story
Holding down the fort for the Rockies here in middle Tennessee often gets lonesome. I have to admit, and I’m sure many of you noticed, that I mentally checked out on this season quite a while ago, for a lot of reasons. It wasn’t just that the Rockies weren’t good, but that my computer would decide to crap out during the second inning of watching a game on MLB.TV (guess I need to order the Extra Innings package on TV next year.) There was work. There’s school. There was the car accident 1000 miles from home. There’s the fact that Vandy is 4-0 in football and might make a bowl game for the first time in my life. Keeping up with the Rockies took a backseat to all of that.
And on so many levels, this season just wasn’t fun. The Rockies were awful in 2005, but hanging around the game threads on here that year was so much fun. The wins were almost always cause for celebration, and the losses weren’t too much of a downer, because, well, we weren’t supposed to be that good. This year, we were supposed to be good. We were supposed to be in the playoff hunt all the way to September. Though I guess we technically were — if only because the rest of the division was so bad, not because we were any good — it certainly felt like by the end of May, this just wasn’t going to be our season. And that hurt. It always hurts when your team doesn’t do well, but it hurts even more when your team is supposed to be good, and it turns out that they aren’t.
I think that without the weight of expectations on their shoulders, the Rockies can be good again in 2009. I resolve to go to spring training again in 2009. After all, the one year I went to spring training just happened to coincide with the one year the Rockies made the World Series. And, of course, with graduation looming in May, it’s officially my final spring break.
by Tom (RFTN) on
Sep 29, 2008 7:21 AM MDT
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Very touching story!
I was living in New Jersey during Rocktober. My girlfriend, a Yankees fan who will root for the Rockies with me as long as they’re not playing the Yankees (which was fun for me last year), lived 7 hours from me at the time. The Rockies also helped us develop a strong bond as we would drive to each other’s place or meet halfway to watch the Rockies in the playoffs when they were playing on the weekends. I drove to her place for the last 2 games of the World Series, and she was thankfully there to see me through the pain of defeat (and I’m sure she wanted to see the Rockies kick Bostons ass too).
Thinking back on it now, I don’t think I’ll ever forget the yelling and screaming around the house, waking up roommates on the Tie Breaker and when we clinched the Pennant. Absolutely the best couple of weeks of my life.
by lunchbox8484 on
Sep 29, 2008 9:07 AM MDT
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Great story
Thanks so much for sharing.
Rocktober was the most amazing time I’ve ever experienced as a sports fan, simply because it was so unexpected. For our beloved Rockies to make that kind of run was something out of dreams. Wow. I’ll never forget it as long as I live.
I cannot say whether things will get better if we change; what I can say is they must change if they are to get better. -Georg C. Lichtenberg:
by rockhead on
Sep 29, 2008 7:54 PM MDT
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I still
remember your diary the day after Game 2 of the World Series about it just being baseball. Exactly how I felt at the time.
"Never Surrender Dreams" - Inscription on J. Michael Straczynski's bench
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by Russ on
Sep 29, 2008 8:17 PM MDT
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That makes me feel really good
Thank you. And as frustrated as I (and the rest of us here on the Row) have been with this past season, I have tried to keep that mantra in mind all the while.
Sports seem to consume us easily. I don’t understand it, but I have been as guilty as anyone of falling prey to it. Maybe one of the benefits of getting older is actually gaining ground in that regard. I hope so, because otherwise I’ve completely lost my edge. (lol)
I cannot say whether things will get better if we change; what I can say is they must change if they are to get better. -Georg C. Lichtenberg:
by rockhead on
Sep 29, 2008 9:11 PM MDT
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Oh, and everybody wish
Hilary a great year over in Oxford, as she leaves tomorrow for jolly old England.
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by Russ on
Sep 29, 2008 8:05 PM MDT
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OMG
The time is upon us???? Gads.
Have a wonderful time, Silverblood! Learn lots, but more importantly, live lots! Enjoy and savor every single minute of the adventure. We’ll be waiting for updates.
Just be careful out there, and come home to Colorado safe and sound.
I cannot say whether things will get better if we change; what I can say is they must change if they are to get better. -Georg C. Lichtenberg:
by rockhead on
Sep 29, 2008 9:14 PM MDT
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If anyone is particularly interested in what I am up to
you can follow my adventures here.
Rockies 2008 Season Motto: "Naaaahhhh."
by Silverblood on
Sep 29, 2008 10:54 PM MDT
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Here's what I think
I think for those college-age Rockies fans (like myself, Russ, and Hilary) Rocktober was, is and will always be about more than baseball. It will come to be a defining moment in our lives. I know I won’t ever be able to look back at my college years and not have Rocktober be one of the first things I think of. It was something truly special that all sports fans would be lucky to have experienced.
Every day is a Holliday!
by free7694 on
Sep 30, 2008 12:05 AM MDT
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Great story...
Here’s mine. Even as someone living in Colorado, I had felt in the past couple of years like an outsider by rooting for the Rockies and wearing Rockies gear to school, etc. Hell, when I joined the Facebook group Colorado Rockies Fans (of which I am now an admin—join now if you haven’t already) in June 2006, it had about 300 members, tops.
I was openly laughed at by some of my classmates for wearing Rockies gear several days of the week, every week—therefore, their success was all the more sweet.
Like most of you guys, I was excited about the Rockies’ chances throughout the 2007 season, but I was realistic. After all, they were the Rockies, right? In any case, I knew they had a small chance of making the playoffs, but in reality there was no way they would do it, especially after dropping two games to the Fish at home.
In any case, it seemed like a great time to go to a game, so me and my dad went to the nightcap of the doubleheader against the Dodgers on Monday the 18th after I finished classes. We sat about ten rows back from the field down the left field line, in a half empty stadium that included many Dodgers fans. It was the best game that I have ever had the pleasure of attending. I caught a foul ball for the first time ever (off Joe Koshansky’s bat), and was electrified by Helton’s walk-off homer. From my seat, I had the perfect view of Helton’s giddy turn around third base and his helmet flip as he headed toward the mob scene at home plate.
Though I didn’t attend another game that year, I tried my damndest not to miss a single moment of what I just knew was a special time. From my dorm room (at CSU) I watched the Rockies win. And win. And win some more…each win seemingly more predestined than the one preceding it. Brad Hawpe hitting a solo shot off Joe Thatcher, a lefty killer, in the 14th inning? Milton Bradley being taken out by a combination of an abrasive umpire and his own manager? Mike Cameron lost when his hand was stepped on by his teammate? The Dodgers self-destructing? Seth Smith—seriously, who saw that one coming? Josh Fogg becoming the Dragon Slayer? Everything Clint Hurdle doing turning into gold? Why not? All signs pointed towards it being the Rockies year.
Then, with a strikeout by Kaz Matsui, they lost to the D-Backs—in my mind, eliminating the Rockies from the playoff picture. I mean, the Padres had to lose both games against a Milwaukee club that had nothing to play for and we had to take two from Arizona…all while the Mets continued their bizarre tailspin into oblivion. Resigned to this fate, I tuned into Fox just in time for the bottom of the ninth inning of the game between the Brewers and Padres…and watched Trevor Hoffman one strike away from ending it all, against the most unlikely of batters, Tony Gwynn Jr. I erupted as little Gwynn delivered the game-tying triple. From that point, I knew the Brewers were winning the next two games. One didn’t come that close to the playoffs and fail as the Padres had—I didn’t think they could regroup for the next day…especially with Peavy being held in reserve for the potential tiebreaker game. And I was right—Padre pitching let them down on the season’s final Sunday, leaving it all up to Ubaldo Jimenez and the Rockies to place themselves in the position to make the playoffs.
From my house, I watched Ubaldo weave an absolute gem—despite little run support—hanging on every pitch, every batted ball. I held my breath as Corpas got into trouble in the ninth, but recorded the final out on a play that could have easily been an error. Helton raised his arms in triumph (a pose captured nicely by his bobblehead, BTW—yes, I have the whole collection) and game 163 was hastily thrown together.
Just as hastily, I tried in vain to grab tickets for the game, but settled for a viewing party with some of my high school friends, who live in Boulder. This was about the only reason that I would ever go to Boulder. Of course, I had a test in my class that day and got out at 5:00. I hustled home and booked it to Boulder…missing the first inning and a half of the game, which started at 5:37 for some stupid TBS reason. I had an intramural softball game that night at 10:15, and figured that I would be back to Fort Collins in plenty of time for that considering the game’s early start. Needless to say, our team forfeited that game.
In any case, I arrived just in time for Torrealba’s homerun to make it 3-0 Rox. The mood was jubilant in my friend’s apartment. Little did I know that the fireworks were just beginning.
After Gonzales’ grand slam in the third had thoroughly deflated the room’s mood and had given the Padres a 5-3 lead, Helton’s first pitch jack in the bottom half lifted it again. It was 5-4 Padres, but the Rockies were getting to Peavy—that much was clear. It was at this point that I began to nervously consume the snacks my friend had provided for the party (and I was still gnawing nervously on pretzels in the bottom of the 13th).
After an equalizing Holliday RBI single in the fifth, Seth Smith becomes Seth Smith the badass in the sixth, launching a deep fly ball as a pinch hitter that was badly misplayed into a triple by Brady Clark, Mike Cameron’s replacement (one of the freakily injured Padres outfielders). Of course, Cameron would have snagged the ball, and he might have also thrown out Smith trying to tag up on Matsui’s sac fly. As it was, Clark’s throw was badly off line and Smith’s run had the Rockies in the lead again.
It was at exactly the point where my friend starting looking at buying playoff tickets online when Atkins’ “double” happened in the bottom of the seventh. While it was obvious to pretty much everyone that the Rockies had gotten jobbed of a valuable insurance run, instant replay was 10 months away from implementation. At this point, my friend started yelling at the old lady sitting by where the ball had landed, telling her that she should have caught the ball…or at least done something of use. I’m not bitter though…if that homerun stands, then we don’t have the Slide. In any case, once Hawpe is IBBed, Peavy is out, and Spilly and Torrealba fail to put the ball in play.
In any case, Holliday pulls a Brady Clark and misplays a Brian Giles fly ball into a double in the eighth and we’re tied at 6. At this point, I get a sinking feeling that, despite the remarkable confluence of events that had led to this very moment, the Rockies were going to lose this game. This sinking feeling only strengthened as the Rockies produced exactly nothing on offense for the next five innings, making the Padres’ relievers look like Sandy Koufax and Bob Gibson at the same time. Meanwhile, the Rockies relievers looked as if they were barely surviving. Several people left the party because they couldn’t even bear to watch the futility being displayed by the Rockies. They could feel it too.
Then Hurdle brought in Jorge Julio, much to the dismay of everyone at the party, and from the noise, at Coors Field too. As my friend likes constantly to point out, Torrealba is terrible at calling games when a pitcher doesn’t have pinpoint control. While Julio can be a great weapon when he was on, he hadn’t been on for quite some time—and couldn’t locate any of his pitches properly. As a result, Torrealba called ineffective fastball after ineffective fastball. After a walk to Giles, the dagger went right through my heart with the homer by Scott Hairston. Poor Jorge was showered with abuse as it seemed the Rockies’ season had just gone down the tubes. He gave up the single to Headley, and with that, the rout seemed to be on. But in came Ramon Ortiz (Ramon Ortiz!), the very definition of a scrap heap pitcher. And wonder of all wonders, there was no further damage by the Padres. This was of no consolation to me, of course. The Rockies had blown their only chance—after all, they had looked pathetic batting in the last few innings, and they had to score at least two times just to keep their season alive, against Trevor Hoffman.
Of course, the Rockies had had their moments against Hoffman, particularly in the 2005 opener with Barmes’ walkoff, but I thought they were dead in this situation. I was only watching due to morbid fascination with the end of such a roller coaster of a season.
I’d like to think that with my reverse-psychology negative thoughts that I brought the Rockies into the postseason. I just knew that Matsui would strike out…and then he legged out a double. And then Tulo hit a drive down the right field line…just foul. I once again felt the air go out of the very tense room. Then Tulo straightened out his drive and brought in Matsui, with should-be MVP Holliday coming up. Matt sure sucked most of the drama out of the situation with a first pitch triple, tying the game.
The apartment was going crazy—I embraced several complete strangers, and was embraced back. Helton was IBBed, and then defensive replacement Jamey Carroll lined a shot to right. At first, I thought it was a hit…but Giles had been playing in. I held my breath—it was really pretty shallow, would Gallego send Holliday? That was all the time I had to think, before I saw Giles uncork his throw, Holliday barreling toward home (no base coach was going to stop Matt in this moment), and Barrett blocking the plate. The Slide…and the safe signal by Tim McClelland. Bedlam. Pandemonium. I was hoarse for three days afterwards.
Did Holliday touch home plate? Does it matter? That was the best game I’ve ever watched in my life (any sport), and the fact that my team won was an incredible added bonus. I’m not exaggerating when I say that I will never forget Rocktober (and especially that night) for as long as I live.
I realize that this post is both extremely long-winded and covers only up to October 1st. I just remember Rocktober so vividly that I could write forever about it. It was among the best times in my young life.
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by Jeff Aberle on
Sep 30, 2008 12:14 AM MDT
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