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The Hardest Part

I said goodbye to my girlfriend today. It was the longest three days of my life. We met last April and hit it off instantly, both excited to see where we could take this relationship. Shortly thereafter we struggled. I think it was each of us adjusting to the other’s patterns and personalities. Though I wanted to give up, let go, and move on, she insisted we keep trying, and now I owe her the best times I’ve ever had. It was all going so well, and when she broke the news to me my heart shattered as it fell from my chest. The shattered pieces left a kicked groin feeling in my stomach. Disbelief and betrayal. I couldn’t, I wouldn’t believe it.

 

But I’m better now. I mean I still feel faint and weak kneed every now and then, but this break up is different than most. It’s difficult to explain. I’m not mad, rather happy, proud, and disappointed sure, but not with her. This time it feels different. Like somehow this wasn’t the end our relationship. Like saying goodbye was only temporary, except this time I know exactly when we start the next, more successful, chapter.

 

See you next April.  

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Is that what this was?

I figured it was something like that, but then again, you never know.

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by Andrew Martin on Oct 14, 2009 3:58 PM MDT up reply actions  

Extended Metaphor, Emotional Release....

Yep. I did my best. But we can’t all be amazing writers.

by purplebleederandjelly on Oct 14, 2009 4:30 PM MDT reply actions  

nono it's cool

I was just thinking “uh….dude, that sucks, but ….uh….this is a baseball blog”

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by Andrew Martin on Oct 14, 2009 6:57 PM MDT up reply actions  

I know exactly how you feel.

For whatever reason, I was more heartbroken this time than ever before.

After sitting up until 3:00 AM on Sunday night/Monday morning in a hotel in New Brunswick, I felt we could come back and at least send it back to Philly.

After Monday’s game, I was just shattered. I really look back on those last two games and feel we could/should have won both of them.

The playoffs will go on without us. I’ll follow it, kind of. But I’ll really be thinking of the moves we’ll need to make for next year. What will our team look like? I can’t wait for February to get here.

"I've had pretty good success with Stan Musial by throwing him my best pitch and backing up third." - Carl Erskine

by pedalpusher on Oct 14, 2009 9:03 PM MDT reply actions  

Big Props

I’m reading, I’m reading, and suddenly I get it. Very nice job with the metaphor. And the tag. Thanks for the post.

That's the true harbinger of spring, not crocuses or swallows returning to Capistrano, but the sound of a bat on a ball. ~Bill Veeck

by rockhead on Oct 14, 2009 9:48 PM MDT reply actions  

I love this post.

That’s about how I felt on Monday night.

I'm still hoping to wake up from that nightmare I had about the 9th inning of Game 4.

by RhodeIslandRoxfan on Oct 14, 2009 10:08 PM MDT reply actions  

The day after the end of Rocktober

I took it out on my wallet. Got 4 different packages arriving today. I may not have my Rockies, but I have two books, two cycling jerseys, a running jacket, a cycling jacket and some rehydration tablets to make me feel better.

by biondino on Oct 15, 2009 3:37 AM MDT reply actions  

A new bike always helps too :)

"I've had pretty good success with Stan Musial by throwing him my best pitch and backing up third." - Carl Erskine

by pedalpusher on Oct 15, 2009 7:00 AM MDT up reply actions  

I have four of them already

Among which are a road bike and a fixed gear bike – but I don’t have a mountain bike. Hmm…

by biondino on Oct 15, 2009 9:00 AM MDT up reply actions  

why do you ride a fixed gear bike?

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by Andrew Martin on Oct 15, 2009 9:11 AM MDT up reply actions  

It's not the easiest question to answer

Since the fundamental reason is “intangibles” :)

Like you, I wondered what the point was, and was under the impression that fixies were mainly ridden by fashion victim idiots who suffered needlessly on anything other than the flat.

I still think this, to an extent, because that’s a significant part of the fixie market.

However, there are real, definable benefits:

  • they make you stronger. Because you can never simply change down a gear or two to tackle a hill, you just have to attack it, put real effort in, otherwise you’ll stop. Ditto headwinds, stop/starting in traffic, and downhills (which are actually the biggest downside to fixie riding).
  • sleek looks. While I love the “machine-ness” of a geared bike, and think the rear dearilleur is one of the best things in engineering, I love even more the simple, narrow, geometric lines of a single speed bike.
  • low weight. I ride fast, light bikes and not having to deal with shifters, multiple chainrings, mechs, cassettes and cables adds up to a significantly lighter bike.
  • low maintenance. Put simply, there’s less to break, go wrong, get dirty, wear out etc. Cleaning a fixie takes maybe half the time.
  • good value. While some bikes are priced as fashion items rather than for their function, the lack of all the extra gear makes them significantly cheaper to put together – and simpler, if your the kind of person who is confident building bikes (I’m not, yet, but I hope to be soon).

As for the intangibles, it’s harder to explain and, no doubt, will sound phony to some. But the connection between you and the machine feels must more intense, and you come to know the capabilities of the bike incredibly well. Fewer variables means it’s more predictable, and the immediate interface means you get out exactly what you put in. There’s a greater feeling of control.

Riding a fixie also makes you a better rider, because its disadvantages mean you have more things to bear in mind when riding. Because you can’t stop pedalling, you can’t freewheel round corners or over obstacles, and there’s always the possibility of striking your pedal on the road surface or kerb. So you plan better, you prepare earlier, and you’re more aware of your surroundings. As a result, I am liable to ride more circumspectly on the fixie, and the lack of a computer on it (I have one on my roadie) means I’m never in thrall to beating my top speed, or getting home in a record time, etc.

A fixed gear bike is a joy to ride in the city (I live in a very flat part of a pretty flat city) in a way the roadie just isn’t, fast and fun though it is. I wouldn’t have a fixie as my only bike, because once you get beyond its comfort zone its limitation become major problems. But for riding 7 miles to work though a bustling, busy city, it’s perfect.

by biondino on Oct 15, 2009 10:07 AM MDT up reply actions  

When I bought my most recent bike, my wife asked "Is that the last bike you'll buy?"

My response was " Uh, yes, maybe, I don’t know. No, absolutely not." Not the answer I think she was looking for.

People ask me what I do in winter when there's no baseball. I'll tell you what I do. I stare out the window and wait for spring. ~Rogers Hornsby

by pedalpusher on Oct 15, 2009 5:11 PM MDT up reply actions  

My gf is very sympathetic, and has already said that when we get a place together

the spare room should be rubber lined and decked out with all the necessary tools and kit so the bikes can live there. She’s a keeper.

by biondino on Oct 16, 2009 4:10 AM MDT up reply actions  

Does she ride? My wife doesn't.

She really supports my riding but I’m pretty sure she doesn’t get the “bike envy” part of it. :)

People ask me what I do in winter when there's no baseball. I'll tell you what I do. I stare out the window and wait for spring. ~Rogers Hornsby

by pedalpusher on Oct 16, 2009 8:11 AM MDT up reply actions  

She rides very slowly and very occasionally

But then she’s got a buggered knee so can’t put a lot of effort into the pedal stroke. She also thinks my fixie is gorgeous and does seem to lust after classic-styled ladybikes. So maybe if we can get her knee fixed…

by biondino on Oct 16, 2009 9:27 AM MDT up reply actions  

atta boy

"It breaks your heart. It is designed to break your heart." - A. Bartlett Giamatti

by Rawktober on Oct 15, 2009 8:20 AM MDT up reply actions  

As a player years ago

you really looked forward to the end of the season. Until about a week or two in and then you were bored. Then it got cold and you realized how many aches and pains you had. Then you started conditioning drills in some gym somewhere and watching videotape on as many pitchers as you could. About Jan 1 you are chomping to go back to Spring Training. The absence this year should be minimalized as MLB Network will have Hawaii League and Mexico Winter League games, the CWS, etc. Only about 4 mos to ST. The crashing end in Oct as bad as it is, is much better than the meaningless games in Sept approach.

by PinchHitLancePainter on Oct 15, 2009 7:45 AM MDT reply actions   2 recs

Haveing sat through those meaningless games

in Sept, and August, and even JUNE….this Rockies organization has come a long way.

this is Heartbreak for sure….but the good kind. To keep the metaphor going…it’s better to have loved and lost, then never having loved at all.

Yorvit Torrealba is my daddy! (metaphorically speaking, please don't kidnap me, as no one will pay and I eat a lot so there goes the profit margin)

by Redhawk on Oct 15, 2009 9:21 AM MDT up reply actions  

ha, I thought of that metaphor as well

If we didn’t experience the crushing lows, we’d never appreciate the soaring heights.

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by Andrew Martin on Oct 15, 2009 9:36 AM MDT up reply actions  

This
The crashing end in Oct as bad as it is, is much better than the meaningless games in Sept approach.

And amen, brother!

That's the true harbinger of spring, not crocuses or swallows returning to Capistrano, but the sound of a bat on a ball. ~Bill Veeck

by rockhead on Oct 15, 2009 8:21 AM MDT reply actions  

EXACTLY

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by Andrew Martin on Oct 15, 2009 8:37 AM MDT up reply actions  

It hurts more but it's better

A real paradox but it’s true.

I'm still hoping to wake up from that nightmare I had about the 9th inning of Game 4.

by RhodeIslandRoxfan on Oct 15, 2009 8:42 AM MDT up reply actions  

I’ll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You’ve been the only thing that’s right
In all I’ve done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we’ll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up…

Slower slower
We don’t have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We’re bound to be afraid
Even if it’s just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

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by Andrew Martin on Oct 16, 2009 9:38 AM MDT reply actions  

That song put them in my permanent top ten band rotation

Just played that song recently too.

"I have no special talents. I am only passionately curious." - Albert Einstein

by Andrew T. Fisher on Oct 16, 2009 10:16 AM MDT up reply actions  

it's so incredibly depressing

like….wow it’s depressing to read

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by Andrew Martin on Oct 16, 2009 10:26 AM MDT up reply actions  

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